Professional Bimbo

"... It took more than a year to get over the shock, humiliation and misery of losing a husband, friend and confidant (he was all those things) but I'm glad to say that that old cliche about time being a great healer is true. I can hardly even remember the pain I felt - just enough not to want to experience it again. I wouldn't say that I'm now cynical about love and men. I have never believed a woman is incomplete without a husband. I think we get on fine without men, but it doesn't mean we can't be happy with special someone too. Let's just say I 'm not really looking at this moment in time. At 40, I am financially independent and I have three lovely kids. I don't feel in need of a man for traditional reason: companionship, stability and security, reproduction. Perhaps this is why the men I've dated so far are a lot younger than me. Basically, I now date for a laugh. I just want a good time, some conversation, and if there's sex, then that...

I must share this. Because I love what Daphne Lee wrote. "When I was a little girl, my mother never lost the opportunity to tell me how beautiful I was. I was her baby, the youngest of four girls, much younger than my siblings. I was a cute chubby child, but I was hardly beautiful. Still, my mother must have believed I was - don't mothers? In any case, because she told me repeatedly that I was beautiful, I believed I was and carried on believing it. All my life, I have been perplexed when people disagree with me on this point! I'm 40 now and I think I look roughly the same as when I was three. I still think I'm beautiful - a few months ago. I even started my own fan club, for a joke I hasten to add, but I acknowledge that there had to be a degree of cheek (which I've always believed is a form of self-esteem and self-love) involved. I can't argue with self-love. If you don't love yourself, you might as well give up on others loving you. (I'm also all fo...

For many years I have been stuck with a small little fridge - a 2nd hand fridge which was sold at RM200 to me by a lovely couple neighbour. As all 2nd hand things go, the fridge eventually gave way and had a spoilt freezer. For years I have been living with the spoilt freezer, where the ice thickens so quickly that we could not put anything inside without defrosting every other hour. For many years I have been wanting the fridge to be replaced. I would open and close fridge doors at stores to imagine how wonderful it would be like to have a fridge just big enough to store some extra food in the freezer so that I could cook nice maggi mee with frozen prawns and tofu on a rainy day. I would stare at the price tag, and think, well, it's not that important after all and it would be tough to move the fridge to a permanent home eventually - how often do I need to cook nice prawny-tofu-ey maggi mee on a rainy day anyways... Screw that. I love my new tall handsome fridge. And I love the fa...

For typing sake, the Malay part was actually originally spoken in Mandarin. Housemate 1: Hey, ada coklat di atas peti sejuk ni... Housemate 2: Oh! Jangan simpan kat situ untuk tempt saya... Housemate 1: Ah? Tempt? Apa benda tu? Housemate 2: Tempt ah... Tempting ... coklat tu tempting ... Housemate 1: Aiyo, nak cakap, cakap bagus bagus! Jangan MIX ! Housemate 2: Jangan apa benda? Housemate 1: ... ... Housemate 2: Kakakakakakaka..... I could not find them in FB lei... it would be nice if we could get connected again hehehe =)

... has to stop.

So I was at the kitchen and I finally cut my finger while cutting an onion that slipped. It was quite a hilarious scene thinking back. I have used the word "bitch" so much. I scolded the onion a bitch. And I was scolding my finger bitch cause it won't stop bleeding. And I scolded my blood bitch for dripping all over the floor. And I scolded the first aid kit guidebook a bitch for not having anything useful to stop the bleeding. I even scolded the antiseptic cream a bitch for no reason. One thing for sure the blood color was really cool. It was red and fresh. Ooo~ that is what vampire craze for. Anyways, the bleeding stopped and I managed to dress the wound on my own - thank goodness the first aid kit was bought. And I had a wonderful friend who helped to continue to cook dinner and lots of kiss for my dear finger =)

Suddenly I am thinking of a long lost friend who I had spent one of the most wonderful years I have in life. She is quite severely long-sighted and for many years she has been wearing fashionable glasses with think frames. One fine day, she had decided to get contact lenses and after a good struggle of 20 odd minutes, she finally managed to get the contacts in and for the first time in her life she was introduced to her smiley wrinkles at the corner of her eyes whenever she laughs (which has been hiding behind those think glasses frame all these while when she looks into the mirror) and she was horrified with the sight of how much she has aged. It was quite a hilarious moment. But it did not stop her from continuing to venture into contact lense (in difference colours I may add) and showoff her charming smiley wrinkles =)

Recently I was bestowed with this nasty cough that actually made me refrained from cold drinks at all cost. Can you imagine! And during this period of mine, I have learnt to appreciate the nice hot drinks that was around me. I had a lot of hot tea. I had hot honey (with garlic at one time none the less - yucks!). I had hot coffee with almond sprinkles. I had hot chocolate. And oh my, I even had hot Milo! And I must say, it is not that bad all =) I liked the feeling when the hot drink warms up my tummy. It's almost like there is a soothing to your heart. Maybe that's what it feels like when people hug hot water bottles. When you cough so hard and you have a hot warm tea, the feeling is such relief... It's like you are being served a cuppa' love! Cheers!

I am having this nasty cough for a month now. And it had got worse for the past 2 weeks. It is difficult to sleep at night and it's worse in the morning. I have seen the doctor and the specialist and the meds are not helping so I am going to look into traditional remedies that I am googling =S "Use of honey is one of the most common, traditional cough remedies. Consumption of 1 teaspoon of hot honey every one-quarter hour will help to relieve the cough symptoms. It will also give relief from severe spasms of asthma. Continuous use of honey is helpful for throat health." Hummm... I think I can try this one... "Finely chop a raw onion and extract its juice. Mix one teaspoon of the onion juice with one teaspoon of honey and keep it for about 4-5 hours. Consume this excellent cough syrup twice a day. Another home remedy with onions is to crush a raw onion and add juice of one lemon. Add one glass of boiling water to this mixture. You can also add honey for better taste. ...

You know... after years of proudly saying that I never watched Sex & The City, I finally did. Not only that - I got addicted and I completed all 6 Seasons completed with movie within a span of 1 month.... muahahahahahahaa! I love the characters, I love the setup (Oh I love New York too!), I love the humour, the reality of it, the ideal of it, the crew, the cast, the story, I love the show =) I was chatting to a friend earlier on and I was trying to convince her to watch the show (she is also going through this nasty long-distance-shall-i-break-up-cause-i-am-not-strong-enough-he-is-so-faraway melodrama), so I told her, watch the show and you will know that even good-looking-career-successful-amazing-wardrobe women has the screwiest relationships in the world and all these you are going through is so normal - parts and pieces of a full-lived life. So take a moment, have a cuppa and embrace life =)

I finally completed my resume after a procrastinating for 5 gawd damn years. But I still do not know what I want to do yet. Because of my upgraded lifestyle over the years, the new job would need to support me a little better and make me sleep better at night. Still want to continue with sales? I don't know. Something that is excel and system bound would be great. That is such a piece of cake to me. Perhaps could consider being a sexytary hahahahaha... I am good at that too =}

...it's one of those zhai evening I am having right now... sitting here in my office... browsing facebook... checking out everybody's picture and trying to imagine how life's is with all of them right now... now that we are all in our 30s... I am quite cool being in my mid 30s now... seems like yesterday when were still in school... and it's one of those evening... I am sitting here... with my three dots... thinking... reflecting... how life is with me right now... And seriously, the Sarah Maclachlan background song is not really helping out at all kekekeke... hummm... I miss writing... perhaps go home, have a cuppa and write =)

This is the 2nd week in a row I have been sitting in a coffee shop on a Sunday just to do brainless things that I think I like to do. Keeping up with Facebook and also playing games online... I have plans today. I want to make prawn salad with lots and lots of prawns... yum yum... and have nice mussels with thousand island sauce... It's peaceful sitting here. Open air with the lap top just doing brainless things that I think I like to do...

I have an obsession with painting nails lately. So I bought a lot of stuff to learn nail art. And this is the result. Not too bad for a beginner =)

Christmas EVe, Steph invited us to their place for a steamboat dinner also cum House Warming. It was a peaceful dinner with Squidy and 2 of her colleagues, Gin & Fergie (read Fei G). We have plenty of booze and food - what else could a good meal ask for! This is us in the kitchen preparing the food. And Steph "chopping" chillis with a pair of scissors =\ And this is the view from her 18th floor apartment which is quite nice: We had such a great time, we are going back there for New Year's Eve dinner though it would just be 3 of us. We are still looking for more participants but then again plenty food and booze, that would be all just enough... kakaka...

Years back when we were students, we could not afford to rent the whole apartment on our own like now. So we put up an ad for the 1 empty room we have. So my roommate Ah Har, who is also Mandarin illiterate picked up the calls. Caller 1: Room for Rent? Ah Har: Yaya... What your name? Caller 1: Oh... my name is Feng Yiu... Ah Har: Har? Wah! Minyak Cap Kapak??!! Me: Wuahahahahaha... Then came another caller: Caller 2: Room for Rent? Ah Har: Yaya... What your name? Caller 2: Oh... my name is Doo Shern... Ah Har: Har? Wah! God of Gambling??!! Me: Wuahahahahaha... Turned out caller no. 2 passed our interview with flying colours and we learnt that his name is actually Too Sheng not Doo Shern as he and his roommate Ah Boon guided our Mandarin better =) This weekend we are meeting up for dinner after 5-6 years we did not get together... Looking forward to that one =)

Most people who meets me and my mummy will tell me I will look exactly like her when I grow old cause we just look so much alike... so in 20 years time I will then look like this... And my mummy loves to surprise me as well... she sneaked in my birthday present into the office... a new coat with a pretty skirt =) Yeah... I love my mummy very much... kakakaka...

This is so uncanny that she looks like her father so much... This is when she just came out - just before the Ghost Festival ends... And this is her just merely 3 days old... Yes, those cheeks, literally and no pun intended, runs in the family =)

This is the last time I went out with Jac. And this cookie fascinated me cause it's so big. She is now living happily ever after in a country thousands and thousands of miles away from me =) I miss our Sundays =)

This is a proud moment. Solitary moments. And there is no place better to have it at the zoo. This so reminds me my trip back in Thailand when I was 12. It would be nice if I could scan the picture and compare. It's like a complete cycle =)